Jus wanna ****

What happens, 

What happens after you’ve been physically drained

Physically starved

Too used to pain

Too used to cold rain

Too comfortable with mediocre 

I guess I just wanna Love with no restrictions

But how can I when I only know rejection

Whether it comes from outside or in

I ain’t trying anymore

I keep saying that and landing in a ditch

So I blind myself

Plucked my eye out so I couldn’t see your soul

So I couldn’t hear your heart cry

to silence my own

I just wanna love

But perceptions were too primitive

For comprehension 

Maybe in younger light I may be able to see better

But will these new sights

Overwhelm me beyond my expectation,

Is it that I must search for the positive in it all 

simply accept these hot coals under my feet as truth

That I myself chose

A truth

That my eye failed to uncover when it was needed most

Im just here trying to make sense of it all

But I feel like that’s costing me my sanity

I feel like knowledge is fucking lonely

We all want to feel love.

Only a few want to know love.

Please explain the difference between Love & God

Too Quick to capitalise that g 

You miss how they capitalise 

On your yearning for knowledge

An infinite prospect 9