It's Ironic that the bullets that I used were not mine
Rather; it came from the victims mouth.
I wish it was normal for me to fight
Then maybe I'd be able to manoeuvre this battle of sound
Who's got the last word
Who's not listening
What did you last learn
When is this finishing
My mind isn't built to constantly
Burn in this Rotisserie
Maybe I'm thinking lucid
Maybe it's been approached viciously
Whatever it is,
I've reached my limit.
Whatever it is
I think it's finished
Whatever is is
I don't want it
I wanna be calm,
I wanna be high
I wanna be fine
But somehow, I'm always this,
I'm always that
I gotta do this
I gotta do that,
FUCK THAT
I am who I am for a reason
And that reason cannot
WILL NOT
Be Changed.
Who I wanna be
And who you want are two different people
If you want a different person
Then why fight for something else?
I wish for peace
I won't back down this time, I need peace of my own mind
I need to be in a new space
Because this one, is a painful one
I don't want to deal with rejection every time there's a misunderstanding
I prefer to only deal with rejection once,
I want peace of mind
I want peace of mind
I want peace of mind
I want peace of mind,
I just for once want to do something that isn't wrong
I'm tired of being people's punching bag
I want peace of mind
I'm so tired of fighting people,
You don't understand
I'm so tired,
I feel like my head is going to explode.
I just ask why?
I wish I knew why
Am I just a magnet for this shit?
I want to cry but I can't right now
I'm angry I keep shedding tears for the same fucking situations
I just want for there to be peace
In me
Even if the whole world wants to step on my toes in unison
I wish for a straight face,
I wish I didn't have to fight so hard
Not even to be understood, but simply to find peace
I wish peace was like fast food
"Boss.... BOSS how much for 3 peice tranquillity And a side of silence?"
Starving physically
Climbing out of this monetary hole
And being shamed back in
Maybe I did flop
Maybe I didn't give enough
Maybe I'm just lost
Maybe I can't do this,
All I know is
Each time,
Each time we go through this,
My mind doesn't want to
Almost feels like my head has been overloaded with unwanted fluid
I don't know what to do
I want love, but I want me more.
I want peace of mind