peices.

I stuck to my guns for the first time

It's Ironic that the bullets that I used were not mine

Rather; it came from the victims mouth.

I wish it was normal for me to fight

Then maybe I'd be able to manoeuvre this battle of sound

Who's got the last word

Who's not listening 

What did you last learn

When is this finishing

My mind isn't built to constantly 

Burn in this Rotisserie 

Maybe I'm thinking lucid

Maybe it's been approached viciously 

Whatever it is,

I've reached my limit.

Whatever it is

I think it's finished

Whatever is is

I don't want it

I wanna be calm,

I wanna be high

I wanna be fine

But somehow, I'm always this,

I'm always that

I gotta do this

I gotta do that,

FUCK THAT

I am who I am for a reason

And that reason cannot

 WILL NOT

Be Changed.

Who I wanna be

And who you want are two different people

If you want a different person

Then why fight for something else?

I wish for peace

I won't back down this time, I need peace of my own mind

I need to be in a new space

Because this one, is a painful one

I don't want to deal with rejection every time there's a misunderstanding 

I prefer to only deal with rejection once,

I want peace of mind

I want peace of mind 

I want peace of mind

I want peace of mind, 

I just for once want to do something that isn't wrong

I'm tired of being people's punching bag

I want peace of mind

I'm so tired of fighting people,

You don't understand

I'm so tired,

I feel like my head is going to explode.

I just ask why?

I wish I knew why 

Am I just a magnet for this shit?

I want to cry but I can't right now

I'm angry I keep shedding tears for the same fucking situations

I just want for there to be peace

In me

Even if the whole world wants to step on my toes in unison

I wish for a straight face, 

I wish I didn't have to fight so hard

Not even to be understood, but simply to find peace

I wish peace was like fast food

"Boss.... BOSS how much for 3 peice tranquillity And a side of silence?"

Starving physically

Climbing out of this monetary hole

And being shamed back in

Maybe I did flop

Maybe I didn't give enough

Maybe I'm just lost

Maybe I can't do this,

All I know is

Each time,

Each time we go through this, 

My mind doesn't want to

Almost feels like my head has been overloaded with unwanted fluid

I don't know what to do

I want love, but I want me more.

I want peace of mind