The Price of Freedom

we search for answers that can never be found,

we search for something to give us hope,

but the search will never be easy.

a loose cannon stuck between two mindsets,

people who hold dear their ways

and people who search.

but to a pack member 

their flock is more important.

Their herd is to be protected,

God forbid you wonder,

Lord forbid you loose you way,

distracted by love that isn’t written,

the love that was meant to be reflected from a deity

is that the love you speak of?

the reason you share,

the reason we laugh,

the reason we love.

you cant break something already broken,

you can’t reach a heart distant from you

…unless that heart reaches back…

only to be threatened once more by

the very thing that he let go.

her life is not her own

to him he belongs

she gave herself away

she gives herself away, repeatedly

to the only man not able to physically hold her

to be used, by him. 

her allegiance held ransom for

assurance of life,

unaware of the many wonders in this one life that she owns.

I digress

It’s not negative, 

because i gave myself to him too once,

my talent, my time,

my sanity, my friends, 

my family….

I signed a deal with a saviour 

and the price for the release of my contract

weighs heavy.

I wanted my all back,

unfortunately I gave that all away.

i wish i had read the fine print,

 ‘If you want out, then you become my enemy.

you’re now an outcast,

you’re now seen as ignorant

and you have no knowledge of what love is.’

Freedom has a price.

No one knows what love is…

So just love.

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